Missed Shots

There are so many chances that showed their faces to me, to change things, to make my life better. But it seemed that I was much more comfortable with the way my life is running right now, so I didn’t give them that much attention. I simply let go of the opportunities I now think of as impossible to have again. But as people say, there’s no use crying over spilled milk, so I shouldn’t mop around. I should start making things better for myself. Maybe the reason why I did not jump on the chances was because they are for my own selfish interests, and that the outcome of my actions would be for worse and not for the better.

I need to change myself first. The negative attitudes I have, all the negative thinking. I should have a positive outlook in life. I should not think very lowly of myself, and stop pitying myself for the circumstances in my life that I didn’t have control over. Right now I can control my life, at least on what course my future will take. I should take things seriously now, no more playing. I should not depend too much on my fate, or my parents, or other people. Independent should now describe my self. I’m 21 already but I haven’t done anything I could be proud of someday. I would like to see my name somewhere someday.